justlauralee

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 02:32:48 GMT

I try so hard not to make waves, and to stay out of people's way, and the one time I'm not so careful, I get in trouble for it. Dan and I had a fight one night, and put together some furniture one night, but we were only in the apartment for six nights then we were gone for six nights. Today is our anniversary, and we had just finished "celebrating" when our downstairs neighbor came up to complain about noise. She wasn't rude or anything, and she seemed friendly enough, but it's like, we have to live here, too, and except for those two nights, I can't think when we've been really loud except for moving stuff in, and we just got back from vacation. Last night all we did was watch a movie starting at 9 o'clock. Before that we moved around some furniture and vacuumed, but we were done at 9 because we started watching a movie. It's just frustrating, because we've only been here for eight nights. Granted, they haven't had someone living above them for like 2 or 3 years, but that's not our fault. It's just that I know that so many people aren't as considerate as I am, but I'm the one getting in trouble. I don't know what it is about me that is so annoying to other people when I'm trying so hard to be invisible. Lately things have not gone so well, which is not a good start to the school year. I have a dentist appointment on Thursday, and my luck is I'll have cavities.

Martha Stewart Here I Come!

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 00:47:04 GMT

I realize that it's wrong for me to be this excited about this, but anyway. I emailed Martha Stewart a question, and it's being considered to be answered on her tv show! Dan is embarrassed by how excited I am, but I love her, especially since she went to jail and I hope that my question gets answered.

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 05:47:09 GMT

I missed the first day of school. For real. At least I only had one class.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 23:09:41 GMT

I'm getting married in 37 days.

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 03:25:12 GMT

I'm going to be a teacher of babies! I just got admitted to the Sonoma State teacher credential program for Fall! Yea!!!

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 01:01:09 GMT

I have an interview for the multiple subject teaching credential program at Sonoma State! Yea!!!!!

So What?!

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 21:20:28 GMT

I have cellulite - So What?!
My nose is crooked - So What?!
I'm not going to medical school - So What?!
I don't have a 4.0 - So What?!

Thanks Tyra

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 16:15:19 GMT

College Bowl was AWESOME!!! We got third place, and I was the highest scoring girl (9th overall, out of over 40). I had a great time, and I'm totally going to miss those guys. But, the week of hell continues. At least it should be over by 5 pm.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 18:44:21 GMT

stolen from Angela/Aaron

1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the 'next' button.
6. Don't lie.

Opening credits: Clay Aiken - Here you come again
Waking up: Blue October - Into the Ocean
First day of High School: Michael Buble - Try a Little Tenderness
Falling in love: Michael McDonald - Ain't Nothing Like the Real Thing
Fight song: Dierks Bently - Trying to Stop Your Leaving
Breaking up: Nicholas Dodd - Fall of a House in Venice
Prom: Vanessa Anne Hudgens - Whatever Will Be
Life: Sara Evans - These Four Walls
Mental breakdown: Westlife - Heal
Driving: Nicholas Dodd - The Switch
Flashback: Mariah Carey - Fantasy
Getting back together: Rent - What You Own
Wedding: Five for Fighting - Maybe I
Birth of child: Westlife - Dreams Come True
Final battle: Robin Thicke - I Need Love
End credits: Rent - Today 4 U

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 20:13:42 GMT

I have a pretty new pink bike!

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 15:59:59 GMT

I have a wedding dress. It is beautiful. I can't believe I'm actually getting married in August. It's weird because of how things are changing at home. I don't think my family is really ready to let go, but then I don't think I am either. Dan and I split this holiday break with a week at my house and a week at his, but unfortunately I was really really sick for the whole week at his house. His mom was really nice and super understanding, but it made me not such a fun guest. Some days I feel really grown up, but others I feel just like a kid in high school again, especially when I'm at home. It's hard too because I'm really competitive and compare myself and my accomplishments to people who are not sick which is not really fair. I haven't figured out the balance between acknowledging my disease and being defined by it, so mostly I pretend I'm not sick until I get really sick and it's unavoidable. I'm just hoping that I feel good at the wedding because otherwise I won't be able to stand up for the whole ceremony and I'd hate to go through the day in a haze of painkillers. But that's a long way away, so I'm sure it will all be back under control by then.

Next quarter I will

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 21:37:28 GMT

1. Cook dinner at home
2. Not get behind on my school work
3. Keep up with Prytanean
4. Go out with the girls
5. Exercise everyday
6. Read more
7. Watch less tv
8. Keep the apartment clean
9. Do laundry more often
10. Have people over more often
11. Call my sister and Kerry more

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 16:50:35 GMT

This weekend with my baby sis made me the happiest I've been in a loooooong time. She is the one of the awesome-est people I know. Apparently, I love Novato.

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 17:14:46 GMT

I shouldn't be so upset. It really wasn't that big of a deal and everybody messes up sometimes. But, unfortunately, I want to curl up in a ball and cry. Just b/c you're the president doesn't mean that people shouldn't cut you a little slack. I swear to goodness I'm going to try to be nicer from now on.

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 00:48:53 GMT

My baby has a job, and I'm so proud of him. But I'm apparently unemployable. I swear to goodness I used to be smart. Did the disease infect my brain?

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 18:20:09 GMT

Two of my favorite singers/musicians have new albums out or are releasing albums soon, so I've been listening to a lot of music lately, and it seems like there's been so much good songwriting lately. Basically, I just wish I could express myself like these people do. I wish that I could take the feelings that I have and turn them into poetry or art or music, but I'm just not that eloquent. So I'll let everybody else speak for me.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 18:15:44 GMT

I feel very in-between right now. On one hand, school is starting again soon, so I'll have classes and homework, and tests, and Prytanean etc. Hopefully, I'll be graduating. On the other hand, I have a wedding to plan (yeah, I'm engaged, btw), and I'd really just like to be living with Dan and working and having a real life. I'm way stressed out about finding a job, especially since it looks like Dan's planning on working at Autodesk, which is in Marin, and Marin's not cheap. I'm usually ready to go back to school by the end of the summer, and I'm certainly ready to move out, but I'm not ready to go back to class, and I'd really just like to be working. I guess we'll see how things go.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 17:41:13 GMT

Oh my god, we're going to Santa Cruz!

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 02:28:55 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (try free of pain)	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	✓ I slept with a roommate. (well, not quite yet, but i will be in like a month ;))
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (i'm 21)	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (this one is kinda up for debate)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	✓ I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time. (never)	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (bunny ears!)	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in. (except for the one that was stolen along w/ my textbooks)	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
✓ Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (yeah right)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 18:08:38 GMT

Everybody I know has internships or jobs or is doing something productive, whereas I'm just spending the summer at home. I feel really behind schedule, but it's been hard enough just getting into classes w/ being sick. I basically lost a year b/c i spent all summer being sick, and then when school started, it was hard enough just to go to class, so the routine was basically, get up, try to go to class, come home from class, sleep on the couch. also, I have no idea what i want to be doing, but I'm graduating in a year, so i'd better make up my mind. sorry for sounding whiney.

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 05:45:10 GMT

Today, I got mowed down in softball, and my professor lost my midterm. Also, I don't feel so good. It has not been my day/week. and it's only Wednesday.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 23:23:25 GMT

I wrote this awhile ago, but I mean it now.

I saved a spot for you
It's the place on my hip where your hand would fit
The dip in my shoulder for your cheek
It's the flat of my cheek for the top of your head
The curve of my arm for your shoulder
My waist for your arm
My hand for your hand
My lips for your lips
So come over...
I saved a spot for you

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:09:33 GMT

Frightening News for Diehard 'Oprah' Fans

If you just HAVE to watch "Oprah," "Dr. Phil" and a soap opera or two in the afternoon, beware! It could be bad for your brain. Older women who enjoy watching they typical daytime TV fare of talk shows and soaps tend to score poorly on tests of memory, attention and other cognitive skills, Reuters reports of new research from Brooklyn College of the City University of New York. Here's the catch: The researchers aren't sure if daytime TV is the reason for the brain drain, but the findings do show an alarming link between program choices and intellectual function. The study of 289 older women who did not have dementia or physical disabilities showed that talk show fans were at a greater risk of showing signs of clinical impairment, compared with women who preferred to watch news programs. Specifically, soap opera fans were seven times more likely to show signs of impairment on one of the tests, while talk show aficionados were 13 times more likely to demonstrate impairment, reports Reuters.
Calling the findings "quite robust," lead investigator Dr. Joshua Fogel said it's not possible to tell how these particular TV programs contribute to cognitive decline or whether women who are already in the early stages of such decline naturally gravitate to these shows. Those who watch daytime TV are also more likely to be sedentary, stay-at-home types, while research has long shown that staying physically and socially active can help prevent mental decline. But regardless of the reasons, a preference for talk shows and soaps "is a marker of something suspicious," Fogel explained to Reuters Health, noting doctors should ask their older patients about their favorite TV shows to determine who might need more screening for cognitive impairment. The study findings were published in the Southern Medical Journal.
-from Compuserve news

Explains some stuff about Ms. Griswold, doesn't it.

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 23:02:32 GMT

My baby sister had the "funnest day" of her life b/c she got smacked in the face with a muddy football. She is the awesome-est person I know.

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 22:01:09 GMT

Ok, some of my other friends took the test and I could see aspects of myself as a Questioner (4 i think), but I think that the Helper sums me up pretty well. I have major guilt complexes when i don't focus on my relationships w/ other people, especially w/ my mom/family.